I'm fucking useless. I'm 21 years old, in my last year of college, and I've never had a real job in my life.  I'm tired of this goddamn bullshit about needing experience and references to get any position, when I'm trying to get these positions so that I actually have some experience for shit I actually want to do in my future.  Why can't the world cut me a break. I would trade so much just for the opportunity to be a work slave.

I have never gotten a legitimately competitive position. I've had a couple boring assignments that meant nothing, and were easy to get because nobody else wanted to do them, but I've never had a smallish important position that other people wanted, too. I'm just inferior to everyone. Apparently I'm not even good enough to wash fucking dishes and put numbers into Excel.

Fuck me